If you haven't had a chance to read the last post, check that one out first because this one will make a whole lot more sense with that one two... and so, this is the follow-up to my "quiet revolution" week;

I struggled to write down this week on paper, not knowing quite what was expected and not sure that the things I did learn were what God wanted me to say. I read through 1 Kings 18 and 19 again several times this week and the question that time and time I wrestled with is how do you hear the quiet whisper of Gods voice? When I take time to concentrate on listening, time and time again I feel bombarded with my own doubts, worries or the answers that maybe I’m telling myself. Sometimes I want it to be God’s voice that is the storm because it’s easier to hear fire and earthquakes than a quiet whisper. But it’s that whisper that I long to hear with all my heart. It’s in the middle of the storm and the pain that I believe we really seek God and are willing to struggle to hear His voice. Elijah sees fire fall from heaven and God move in a powerful way. And still he ends up hidden in a cave praying for death, likely praying for anything other than being told to, “go back the way you came.” (1 Kings 19:15). We can’t deny the quiet of Gods voice because in its stillness it’s more powerful as the earthquakes and the fire.

I think more than anything this week I was so much aware of the time that I was or wasn’t choosing to spend with God. I missed my quiet time last night and woke up this morning again thinking about how hard devotional time is to maintain. I was years into my Christian walk before my devotionals had any resemblance of consistency. I was so frustrated with everyone telling me the necessity of devotional time and not seeing it backed up in my life that I gave God an ultimatum. I committed to a daily 2 weeks of devotionals but if he didn`t “show up” in that time I was done, feeling I could honestly say I gave it a good shot. God totally showed up in those two weeks and I still look back at that time as being extremely special to me. I was also being held accountable in my devotional walk and this kept me going through the lows. We have such an awesome opportunity right now; both to grow in our personal devotional walks but also to encourage and help hold each other accountable as we lead this Quiet Revolution. I know how difficult and frustrating it can be to seemingly scream at God and miss the whisper. I’ve been there. My hope and prayer though is that through this you grow closer to God and learn, like we’re all learning, how to hear His whisper. I still don’t have my answer to how we hear it but I know that this week has shown me the necessity of listening even when the answers aren’t what I want to always hear, if I hear anything at all.